I am amazed and I wonder… I was looking at some photos and was thinking of what to share then I saw a particular picture of my two boys. It was actually taken 3 years ago, I think. They were just little boys. They were charming and you just want to cuddle them all the time.
Now, both are in Grade 2. The eldest boy (Japoy) is seven years old the younger one (Jeijei) is turning seven this October. Yes, both of them are in Grade 2. I am blaming it on the K-12 program, as of now. Jeijei cannot be admitted as a Kinder pupil due to his age and his birth month falling on October. I am not a fan of this new curriculum.
Going back to the reason why I posted this blog… I am truly amazed at how fast they grow. Now, they squirm when I hug and kiss them in public, especially Japoy. Jeijei is still a bit of a baby. I cannot imagine sleeping without them beside me. In a few years time, they will need to have a room of their own. I just cannot imagine that.
Yes, it is wrong to wish that they would just remain as babies. But as an obligation of a parent, I have to let them go. They need to mold their own lives. Of course, both my husband and I will be there in every step of the way. Helping and guiding them to find their own way. I am just not ready at the moment. I just want to make sure that they stay as sweet as they are. I just want to feel needed by them.
Need to have strength to face a future wherein they can stand on their own, not needing their parent’s presence anymore. Do you feel the same way? I know it is wrong but that is what I feel at the moment. A mother who feels such apprehensions at the moment of her own weakness.